You think you’re a wallflower, but really you’re a painting hanging on the wall of a gallery that everyone wants to visit. You’re the work of art that everyone asks about, the one that every artist wishes they created. To try to describe you in words would only do a disservice to all that you are, but heaven knows I will try my best. To do you justice is my goal, the hardest task I think I have ever attempted.
If the last time we talked were the last time that happened, would be happy with the way it went? Would you wish we said more or less? Would you want to try again?
I ask these questions not for myself but for everyone you know, because no-one really gets to ask them. We waste copious amounts of time going over scenarios in our minds that may not ever come to fruition, gnawing over could-have-been’s and what-if’s about situations where we ignored our intuitions, when we should have listened.
Listen, and try to understand, not just to form a reply, don’t overthink what I’m projecting I haven’t yet broken the ice. Our minds race a million miles even before anyone is close to the middle of reaching their conclusions, we meander towards self-gratification when we should be fighting for resolution.
Resolution and peace, but never be complacent with mediocrity. You deserve the best, this we both desire; do not resist but fight with me.
I know everyone has their ups and downs, and you may have experienced more of the second. Even if you doubt it, better things will come. You just need to keep going, even if you fail, go on living but take your lessons. Because life will teach us better than any one person can, we only have to listen. Understand what it endeavours to teach us, take head of its mission.
It is a tiring journey and it can be beautiful, but that depends on the eyes we see it through. Because I can see the things that have gone wrong, then my gaze shifts to you, and honestly you’re unbelievable. I can hope all I want for you to see what I do, but that isn’t up to my judgement. You only see yourself through your own eyes and with your own mind, those are jewels of their own right, but have they come to see what I have yet?
I see a person possessing a heart of gold, thawed by your own warmth, even if the exterior seems cold at the start. Eyes that lead to a deep soul and a mind that holds so much more than anyone could ever know, a person I’d be lucky to explore but I don’t know if I’m brave enough.
But that is only my opinion, what you think of yourself is infinitely more important.
I’m not trying to be right, or the one that say’s “I told you so” when you realise how amazing you are, because being right doesn’t matter. What others think of you is none of your business and your own thoughts are much more significant, I hope for you more of the positive latter.
So think yourself the wallflower all you want, just know that you’re admired. As sure as the sun sets and rises again, the appreciation will not expire.
Alis propriis volat (Latin) – She flies with her own wings.
The literal translation of the phrase is actually gender neutral but is often done so with a “she” because it was originally used to describe nations, which are usually described as feminine.